Loss

I'm feeling such a loss. I miss having girl friends that are in the same city. I have a few here, but sometimes I feel like telling them my problems is just putting my burdens on them. I don't want to feel that way, and I don't want them to feel burdened.
I feel like every time I start building a true friendship with someone, that person disappears from my life. Some end up doing cruel things in the process to ruin the relationship. Some just leave. I know this is part of the adult process. I just don't understand why it has to be so painful. 
My best friend lives in Chicago. I went to visit her in August and told her practically every thing that was going on in my life. She was shocked!
Mostly, I just feel heart broken. Why do women think it's OK to treat each other like crap? I can handle not hanging out with someone all the time. Being stabbed in the back is a completely different situation! 
I miss having a close friend that I can just tell everything to. I am a highly guarded person in general, so, I don't just blast every thing every where.
Maybe I should just higher a therapist. Then, they have too listen to me!

30 Days of Thankfulness: Day 22, Happy Thanksgiving

Day 22: Today is FULL of Thankfulness!  Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!  I'm thankful today for friends, family, and food!  I'm so happy that my friends and family will be able to celebrate together today.  I'm thankful that we are able to afford the turkey with all of the fixin's.  Turkey is one of my favorite foods!  I'm grateful that Ian and I are able to travel this year and see everyone.  This may not always be the case, but this year, we still can.
Well we did what I call the "Indiana World Tour."  That is: Wednesday, we visited my parents at two different nursing homes, down the street from each other in West Lafayette.  Thursday morning, we started in Indianapolis, and then, ended up in Bloomington for lunch.  We'll then ended in the Shelbyville/St. Paul, Indiana area to visit Ian's family!