Showing posts with label Grad School. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Grad School. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Would you go back to school?

After seeing my friend, Trevor's Graduate Conducting Recital last week, it makes me think, maybe I should go back to school.  He has such an awesome passion for what he's studying!
I never really felt like I had that passion when I was in music school.  I was there just to get a job.  I was a horrible student!
There were a lot of factors behind that, like being told, "Don't do music! You have to get a job with insurance!"  It was actually a bit heart breaking.  So, why even try?  My entire time in college, I was there to just get by, not study something with passion. 
Could I go back to school now with as much passion as Trevor has? He is amazing at directing a choir!
I still don't think I could do it.  Even if I went back to school to study something completely different, like to become a hair stylist or get into cosmetology, I still don't think it would be a possibility.  Some days, I feel like having a passion for something is just gone from me!  This is a bit sad!
Don't get me wrong, I love directing choir's.  It's just, I could never go back to school for music, and feel like I was accomplishing something.  
Maybe this is just part of having that mid-thirties slump in my life. It's not that I'm not generally happy.  I am.  I'm just going through the motions a lot of days.