Lies

I'm a little torn today. Why do people think it is ok to lie? I mean, any kind of lie. Lying by omission. Lying to a sales clerk or company to get what you want. (For free even.) Lying to a group of people.

I physically cannot lie. My body immediately goes into embarrassment mode. Something in my brain explodes. My body physically reacts to a lie. My cheeks start blushing. It's a horrible feeling that I cannot deal with internally.

I've been lied to numerous times in the last couple years. I just don't understand how people can feel completely ok with themselves doing this. 

I've watched people tell their children to lie to me and think it's going to just blow over with the child. Not even "little white lies" but flat out lies. The child is learning it's ok to lie.

It makes me think people in this day and age do not have a moral fiber in their being. How do they get hired? I would never use them for their business. They may lie to me to get what they what or to get the sale. 

I used to trust everyone fully at first. They had to prove to me that they were not trust worthy. Now, it's the opposite. Maybe that makes me gullible. I really just wanted to see the good in people, but I can't do that anymore.

Baptism

Sunday, a man got up in Fast and Testimony Meeting and stated how, his Baptism Day, when he was eight years old, was one of the happiest days of his life!  It's right up there with his wedding day and children's births.
Well, that got me thinking about my baptism day.  I remember a few things about that day, but there is one huge thing I think about that day. Guilt. Down right guilt. That's all I thought about that entire day.  I was supposed to be washed of my sins and be perfect. But I wasn't perfect, nor would I ever become perfect.  I had some huge sins on my mind at the time, yes, even at eight years old.  In my mind, at that time, I could never over come them.
I don't think I've ever over came that guilt.  It has stayed with me for 25 years. I've just learned to live around it. At the time, I felt like I joined the church based on lies, and continually lied my entire life.
I'm over living in guilt.